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I left high school with a full scholarship to college. It was supposed to be the start of my life. Well as life goes, things happened in my family and I was unable to complete college off my scholarship. I began working and trying to attend school on and off. At the age of 21, I was admitted into the hospital because I was pregnant with twins. My twins were trying to get out 4 months early, doctors told me they were coming any day now and that they probably wouldn’t make it. I refused to believe that my kids were not going to make it. Despite all the experiments they wanted me to commit my unborn children to, I chose to have faith. My doctor said they needed to make it until 28 weeks in order to make it. God being the AWESOME God He is, my children made it to 30 weeks. Although they were tiny, they came out breathing on their own. No bleeding in the brain and just as healthy as they could be. Well two weeks after their birth, my daughter was diagnosed with Down Syndrome. The doctors said she would never be able to go to “regular” school, never be able to hear, have all of these problems. My daughter has had problems, one being a heart problem, but not to the extent she was diagnosed. She had heart surgery and was out of the hospital in one day. Her heart is functioning fine, she is in “regular” school, can hear better than anyone and takes some classes with her peers. Well through all of this, their father decided it was too much. All the while, I am still trying to finish school. No child support, no emotional support, and no parental support, I carried on with my life because as a great friend told me, God is a husband to the husbandless and a father to the fatherless. Last year God blessed me with clarity I never experienced. I left all that I know in
God Bless!!!
Although my mother struggled when I was younger, seeking out a husband to help raise her children, she always managed to have us in church, so the word was always there...I clung to friends, though, and this resulted in a lot of my ways...I suffered physical abuse from my step-father...so, with any chance to get out of the house I'd jump.
One day my best friend called to offer me a ride to an annual festival held in our city...When she arrived, she was escorted by her much older boyfriend and his much older friend. I did whatever they did to fit in, including drinking and smoking. So when talk of a hotel surfaced, I agreed...We went through 3 cities, and I began to become relieved, sadly, they found a hole-in-the-wall place and that is where I lost my innocence, with my friend in the next bed, laughing at me along with the grown men that brought us there, because I asked her to tell them I had to go home. I didn't say anything else, I just cried inwardly as this grown man took my childhood.
It was then that I should have learned to stop following the crowd, but I continued on that path and history repeated itself, I became a teen mother, and I didn't like my child's father, I was just going with the flow, and being so uneducated about such things, I thought he used protection, because he said he did...I had my baby in April of 1990, and I lost my mother on the same day my daughter turned 5 months, in September of 1990.
I became even more promiscuous, ever conscientious that GOD could see me, so I was afraid to pray those nights, for I KNEW of my sin...My daughter & I lived in 5 different places from the time my mother died in September 1990 until I graduated in June 1991. Then I lived with 4 different people, one of which was a perspective husband, GOD was truly with me there, the day we went to get married, the doors got locked upon our arrival. When we got to his mother's and told her what happened, she asked him out right if his intentions were to marry me so that he could beat on me freely. He stated, matter-of-fact, "Why not, she'll belong to me then!" I thank GOD for HIS mercy toward a maggot like me. I continued to live with him for awhile after that, I had no place else to go, and I had endured abuse of every kind, from physical to sexual, he even placed a loaded gun to my head...I got my own place through Section 8, and I still tried to hold on to that man, so I wouldn't be alone...
I met some others just like him, even another gun toting bully, that tried to test my loyalty to him by having his nephew try and rape me while I slept, when I tried to kick them out and get my key, he placed his nice big 357 to the temple of my head, and with demands he did as he pleased with me. The next day, I broke a plastic knife off in the lock and went M.I.A. until I felt it was safe. Then, on the day of my daughter's 2nd B-day, I started out early to get the party together along with my best friend, yes the same one I was with when I lost my innocence, (1 Corinthians 15:33...bad association really does corrupt good character!) and after our children's party, she brought her boyfriend, his brother, & friend for me & my roommate to have company. Well, since I had gotten so little sleep the night before, I was exhausted, so while my roommate had one room and my best friend had the other, I stayed in the front room with this guy that came along. I knew my friend's boyfriend from childhood, so I thought I'd be okay, well, that snake tried to rape me as well, I jumped up and grabbed a bottle, then I demanded that they take that trash out of my home! I had never felt so afraid, my exhaustion almost lead to me being violated.
I had a mental break down on my mother's birthday, 3 years after her death, due to me pondering on what my step-father said to me on my 17th B-day, which was 1 week to the day, after my baby was born,...he said, "Isn't it something how GOD can take one life (my mother was in the hospital for the 2nd time due to cancer), and give another life (as he looked at my baby)...it was in the hospital's mental unit that I realized that GOD had given me someone to love, my daughter, it's truly not how a thing begins, but the end of that thing...
Due to my weak willed flesh (2 Tim 3:6) I still had a way to go...I had another child out of wedlock, and I thought I'd marry her dad, but GOD knew that I was seeking a husband that would lead me to Christ...I met my husband, through my best friend, he's the cousin to the guys that were at my house the night I was almost raped. His 1st words to me were, "Do you go to church?"...I just knew GOD had heard my prayers, so I went into a relationship with him. We began to live in sin, so before we got married, my then boyfriend stated the desire to consecrate ourselves before the marriage...
At the beginning of our marriage, my husband had become faint-hearted, he thought that I had intentions on staying in the JEHOVAH's Witness organization, but I sought to live my whole life for GOD...due to the lapse in church attendance and Bible reading, my husband began to drift away from GOD, sometimes I think it was a spirit that sought to discourage me because I had not received the baptism of the Holy Spirit so my eyes were on my husband and not GOD...so because I knew that I had past hurts, current hurts, and a void in our family, I gathered my children and went to the church. I had fights with my husband, I had arguments with his family & his children's mother, but I pressed my way...I was still smoking cigarettes, but I kept searching for the answers on how to put GOD first and my husband and addiction had to move out of the spot that rightfully belonged to GOD, and true to the Word at 1 Peter 3:1...GOD brought my husband in, and now I can go to him and be taught those things that he as the priest of our home have a knowledge of that I still don't know. I was baptized for the first time on July 17, 2005, and I can truly say, I'm Blessed!!!
***Shann's Testimony***
I am a 31 year young black Christian woman, a mother of 5, and a wife. My life has had it's low points and it's high points. It wasn't until I put God at my center that I reached my highest point( well I haven't reached heaven yet)! I grew up with two loving parents that did so much for me that it did nothing but damaged me, I took them for granted. Don't get me wrong I loved them, I just didn't appreciate them like I should have. I was led into a life of promiscuous ways, because at 12 I had my virginity stolen by a friends 16 year old brother. My parents never believed me, they just thought I had wanted it just because we all hung out together. I never healed from the fact my parents didn't trust me so I started to give them reasons not to trust me. Running away, lying about where I was staying, and having sex with any young man that made me feel special. I still on the other hand had alot of things going for me besides my looks, I was smart, involved with many activities in school, and academic programs. I went to a traditional high school and graduated at 17 inspite of having my first son at 16. My parents support me and helped me still accomplish walking with my class and attending college. I didn't finish because I moved out of there house and was instantly grown. That's when it all started the destructive relationships, drugs, and partying. Well 2 kids later I lost my dad to cancer out of no where. My mom basically gave up living then at that point. She was shortly diagnosed with diabetes and cancer, and I watched her die 2 years later. It took me hitting rock bottom to turn my life over to the lord like my mom was always telling me to. I was brought up in church but never really attend like I should've, especially when I started my own family. My mother encouraged me to bring my children up in church. The guy I was dating and had my last 2 children with was also brought up in a strong Christian home despite all of this we both chose to live a worldly life and not a Christian life. We mixed up in a life of crime, in and out of jail, domestic violence, drug use, and just being a dysfunction family unit for our children. Well I decided enough was enough and one day I woke up as if God had just spoke to me in my dreams, telling me I called your parents home to give you awake up call, you were never going to blossom into the young god fearing woman I made you to be if you always knew you could have them right there to pick the pieces up for you. I had a good man, he was just struggling with his temptations as well, because the devil knew how to attack us and he didn't want us to stand strong together, he needed to separate us. He didn't win, we now have been married going on 2 years after deciding we could no longer live in sin and expect our lives to be any different. We joined a church as a family unit and we no longer have needs for those things that were our addictions. We only have a desire for God, we can't get enough. We totally changed our way of living, and it's all because God is faithful and he never gave up on us.
My Story
“Pretty Girl Blues”
I hope this will help someone
Pretty girl blues. Was this a label she put on herself or allowed others to give her? Why did she allow herself to hide deep in her pain? She hides behind her pretty looks, clothes, and the truth within. She has outer beauty, but was suffering on the inside with low self-esteem, pity, and unhappiness. Could her beauty cover up her hurt? She desperately wanted to be accepted. Yes, she has a darling personality and nobody could take that away, but was it enough to mend the hurt and internal pain? Her parent’s had sacrificed and cared for all her brothers and sisters, but would they anticipate one of their children developing cancer at the age of two.
We are familiar with several types of cancer, but a baby developing this type (Rhabdomyosarcoma) was unheard of. This was such a rare form of cancer the doctors’ thought she would not live to celebrate her 3rd birthday. How could this be and why? Most importantly how would doctor’s care for this child? Her care began at the University of Maryland Hospital in
At Sloan Kettering she would have many operation, chemotherapy, and radiation treatments. Because of the cancer, reconstructive surgery was not optional. This procedure would cause her to have a colostomy and ileostomy bag to aid her bladder and bowel function for the rest of her life. Even after that operations seem to never stop.
Imagine growing up wearing two bags, being teased and set aside because you can not tell if it is time to change your bags. “Hey what is that smell”, they would say. She had incidents in school and when she did not know how to handle these situations it really caused her low self-esteem. She had it bad. Her hearts desire was to be like other children. To be teased by her peers was heart breaking.
Becoming a teenager and maturing into a young adult were difficult years. She later involved herself in boyfriends, but when they got close she would break it off, fearing they would not understand. She had a method of trying to hide “the secret”. Someone will understand, she thought. It seem like no one did, what a fool she felt like.
Continuing to hide behind her family, friends, and pretty looks, she developed the craft of covering and dressing up the outside. This disease causes her to hide deep in her pain. Questions would arise. How would she cope? How would she handle what life have dealt her? Can she continue to hide “the secret”?
So I asked myself, “Why do I feel so blue, and how can I change the way I am feeling”
Surely, there was an answer. I could not imagine, but God would change my life. He healed me from cancer. I am His miracle child. He protected and assured me everything was going to be all right. God not only healed my physical body, but my spirit and mind. That is what needed to be healed desperately. I am thankful for that spiritual process which took place within me. My insecurities did not change overnight, but I learned how to be a survivor.
The question was not “why me”, but “Why Not Me”. This “secret” would no longer be a secret, but a triumphant story. Trials and tribulations tested my faith, but it made me stronger. God instilled in me an inner strength I thought I did not have. This journey has taught me so much and I will use this experience for my aspirations in life. I want to be a top model, whether it is print, runway, or commercial. Yes, my biggest dream is to walk that big catwalk, but what famous designer will give me that chance? I know my situation is unusual in this industry, but I thank God for opening doors that other wise would be shut in my face. To see the outer beauty you could never tell I live with these adversities. After all I have gone through, who would have thought becoming a fashion model, inspirational writer, motivational speaker, and now owner of my own Christian based modeling company was in the plans for me. But it does not stop, there is so much more to come. This story may seem personal, but because of my adversities in life I will continue to reach out, encourage, uplift, listen, understand, and help those in need.
My faith and trust in God makes all the difference. I am thankful for my family, friends, and most of all angels that watches over me. Today, at 39 years old I am blessed with a wonderful husband of 11 years that appreciates, understands, and accepts me for me. I will continue to have a permanent colostomy bag and the use of a self-catheter for the rest of my life. I am very thankful for this journey. I am a Fashion Model, WOW; sometimes I can not believe it. As I look back over my life and would not change anything. My light will continue to shine so others can witness and know they can overcome obstacles. Do not be ashamed or afraid to tell your story because you never know how “blue” someone may feel. I can and will live a full and vibrant life. Today I am CEO/Owner/Founder of www.Thoughtsofinspiration.com & J & Company Christian Modeling InChrist; www.jaccmodelinginc.com
Written by: Jearlean Taylor Copyright ©2002
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I WANT TO LET EVERYONE KNOW THAT JESUS TRUELY LOVES YOU ALL!!!!!
I HAVE WENT THRU THE STORM AND STILL THERE AT SOME POINTS. MY HUSBAND DOES DRUGS, AND I USE TO GO TO THE HOUSES WHERE HE USE TO BE TO GET HIGH... I USE TO JUMP OUT OF CARS TRYING TO CHASE HIM AND TRYING TO MAKE SURE THAT HIS CHECK MAKE IT HOME..... BUT KNOW I DONT GO TO FIND HIM... GOD HAS BLESSED ME WITH A JOB THAT I CAN PAY SOME OF THE BILLS THAT WE HAVE.... I HAVE JOINED A NEW CHURCH AND GOING IN A NEW DIRECTION.. BUT THIS IS TO SAY IF YOU TRUELY LOVE GOD AND TRUST HIM HE WILL MAKE A WAY FOR YOU TO BE ABLE TO SEE AND PROVIDE FOR YOU AND LEARN TO PRAY FOR YOUR HUSBAND AND IF ITS NOT MEANT FOR YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND TO BE TOGETHER HE WILL REMOVE PEOPLE OUT OF YOUR LIFE.. THAT YOU WOULD SAY GOD LOOK AT YOU.
LOVE YOU SISTAS
A MEMPHIS CHRISTIAN WOMAN THAT''S GOING TO DO BETTER.
God Answers prayers in his own time. I got divorced when I was 32 years old. Here I was with 2 children ages 11 and 7. I had family support but I knew that with the help of God I could make it. I was so hurt and distraught from my divorce that I didn’t think that I could ever find true love again. After several bad relationships I gave up completely and surrendered to God. I prayed and asked him to bless me with a man like my daddy. Low and behold 11 years later the Lord brought me and my current husband together. We had grown up together as kids and gone on with our lives and then God brought us together. I thank God everyday for blessing us and bringing us together. God is able if you just put your trust in Him. He knows what we need better than we do. Be encouraged.
Karen A. Vick
I decided one day to give my life to Jesus Christ because I had things going on in my life that I could not control, or shall I say solve my own problems, take them in my own hands. Because I did make that decision and allowed God to guide me and help me in the decisions I make, I've noticed a tremendous change in me and in my life, all because I surrendered and asked God to help me and deliver me from those situations I thought I could handle. Bottom line is if we go to God, which that's what he wants us to do, and ask him to help us and deliver us, he will, God said he will never leave us or forsake. So my point is try him you can't go wrong, he is wonderful.
MY STORY THE MOSES WHO DELIVERED ME
MY MOTHER WAS A DRUG DEALER. I GREW UP WATCHING MEN COME IN AND OUT OUR HOUSE ALL TIME OF THE NIGHT. MY MOTHER WAS KILLED BY HER PIMP. AT AGE SEVEN I HAD TO GO LIVE WITH MY GRAND MOTHER WHO I KNEW NOTHING ABOUT. I WAS MALUSTATED FROM AGE 7 TO 14 BY MY GRAND MOTHER HUSBAND. I LOST MY VIGINITY BY HER HUSBAND. I BECAME VERY BITTER. THIS SPIRIT ROBBED ME. I WAS THEN TAKEN OUT OF THE HOME AND PLACED IN FOSTER CARE. WHEN I GOT TO MY 3 FOSTER HOME THAT WOMAN WAS MY MOSES. MY DELIVER. SHE INTRODUCED ME TO MY SAVIOR. I GAVE MY LIFE TO THE LORD AT AGE 17. I AM NOW A EVANGLIST OF THE GOSPEL. I LOVE THE LORD. I SAID ALL OF THAT TO SAY THAT NO MATTER WHAT YOU HAVE GONE THROUGH IN LIFE GOD LOVES YOU. HE WILL ALWAYS TAKE CARE OF YOU. I KNEW AT A YOUNG AGE THAT GOD HAS WAS ON MY LIFE. I LOST MY MOTHER, BROTHER, AND FATHER. I AM THE ONLY ONE LEFT. I AM HERE TO DO DAMAGE TO THE KINGDOM OF DARKNESS. I WILL NOT ALLOW MY PAST TO ROB ME OF MY FUTURE. I HAVE A LOT TO LIVE FOR. YOU HAVE A LOT TO LIVE FOR. PRESS IN THE SPIRIT. PUSH , PUSH PUSH UNTIL CHRIST IS BIRTHED IN YOU. BE ENCOURAGE. ONLY YOU CAN HOLD UP YOUR FUTURE.
LOVE KIMBERLY JONES DOWNS
My story startes with God sees all and he knows when we dont follow him in the right ways.
I was in a sinful relationship for three years. I played wifey to a man that wasnt in to chruch and didnt have any remorse to treating woman as sex symbols and plain using them.
I thought I was different but I wasnt. He used me like all the other women that he met. I was very stupid and blind to see through his head games and lies. But God said enough is enough. I prayed to My Lord to open my eyes to see truth that so many of my friends and family saw. And he did, Thank You Jesus.
I realized that this man was no good for me, and God saw this. I went through heart ache storm to realize that God is my man as single woman. I wastn married to this man and I was living like I was. He cheated on me with another woman that he would bring to our house while I was at work, he slept with women on house and left every weekend with them. But what really broke me down to my knees was after we broke up for three months he married the woman he cheated on me. I did every thing for this man and he back stab me,used me stole from me and sexually abused me. And I still loved him. I played wifey to this man for three years and then he married someone else.
God taught me a lesson. As a single woman my concerns should be on Him, not man. And I went thru so much, very depreseed, loss weight and most of all had no self respect. But God showed me something I didnt know, He was still here for me and would never leave me, ever.
Joanna J Guess
father and was in a relationship with a man that was a recovered drug
addict, (herion). I knew this when I met him, but he was clean for
5yrs. I thought he had beat it. Not so, in 1995 he found the lord and
let me back to the father. But then began the roller coaster. I
married him after he came out of rehab, believing in God that he was
cured and heal, set free from the bondage of drugs. My husband fell
many times since then, I never stopped loving him in the midst of the
storm or the battle. You see I loved him, and I married him for better
and for worse, so I kept on believeing in God for his deliverance. He
stayed on Drugs on and off for over a period of 10yrs. Most of my
married life with him. I prayed for my husband, for healing and
deliverance, to be set free, even when I said "Lord God, I can't do this
any more". The Lord gave me the strength to stand in the midst of the
storm and battle, fighting for my husband and my children who lived thru
the hell of living with a drug addict. He robed by me of material
things and emotions, but the God that I serve is a healer, and he heals
all wounds and gives you the strenth to continue on even when you say I
can't. But woman of God, you can, just stay focus on God and look to
the hill from where you help comes from. He is there waiting to embrace
you and shelter you beneathe the shadow of his wings. I give God all
the praise.........Today my husband is delivered from the bondage of
drugs and is studing the word of God. To God be the Glory. Fight for
what God has given you and don't allow the devil to take it away. For we
woman are overcomers and conquerors in Christ Jesus.
Stay strong woman of God
God Bless
in the first place I finally after a 3month old and two older children,
depression, hopelessness, fear, suicidal thoughts and years of chaos I
finally decided to trust God. now I am not going to lie last year around
this time I felt like dying, giving up on me, my children, my job and God I
just wanted to crawl under the covers and stay there. but the lord would not
let me fall. I finally put my husband out after a very big fight. for years
I was trying to make things work because I did not want my daughters to grow
up fatherless like me but little did I know the lord had prepared my spirit
a long time ago to make it. with one income three children 2 months backed
up rent, a brand new car, a hefty rent and making less than my bills he made
a way and let me just say during the gas crisis he was faithful I have never
been out of gas, without lights food our needs were always met and he even
supplied some wants(smile). today November 2006 I am more than a conquerer
through Christ Jesus after. A year of leaving my husband I have peace, joy
and a stronger relationship with the lord and my children are doing so much
better and to top it off I am finishing my book " I never shall forget" God
is SOOOO faithful!!!!!! trust him ,just him and he will bring you out and it
all to pass. your hurt and pain and he will give you the garment of
praise!!!! for your spirit of heaviness. give it all to him !!!!!he can fix
it. I have so much more to say but I was ask to keep it short so be
encouraged and know that Gods plans for us are of good and not of evil he
will never ever leave nor forsake you. take heed and do just what psalm 37
says to do in him trust,rest,delight thyself in the lord. God Bless All you
sisters and thank you sister Harrell for using this website as a tool for
women to be encourage in the LORD
I had to laugh when you said God has a way of getting our attention. What came to mind was the time my husband and I were awaken at 3 AM by the house alarm, which we had not been setting for about one year. Thankfully it turned out to be a false fire alarm. As we lay talking I just began to examine my breast (not something I do with any regularity even though I am good with annual mammograms). Boy was I stunned when I found a lump. Long story short, I indeed had breast cancer and went thru lumpectomy (Girls ALWAYS get a second opinion!!!) chemo , hair loss and radiation. Never was I sick, no pain, no nausea. AND I have been cancer free for 1 year.
I decided one day to give my life to Jesus Christ because I had things going on in my life that I could not control, or shall I say solve my own problems, take them in my own hands. Because I did make that decision and allowed God to guide me and help me in the decisions I make, I've noticed a tremendous change in me and in my life, all because I surrendered and asked God to help me and deliver me from those situations I thought I could handle. Bottom line is if we go to God, which that's what he wants us to do, and ask him to help us and deliver us, he will, God said he will never leave us or forsake. So my point is try him you can't go wrong, he is wonderful.
Sincerely,
Anonymous
I am very pleased to see this sight. I do have a story to tell, but I choose to leave my name out because of my family.
I was in a very abusive three year relationship with someone that I thought loved me. I left the church and made this man my all. This man beat me and was the cause of my first miscarriage. He held guns to my face and stole money from me. I felt as if no one understood me. I felt so alone. When I became pregnant the second time I prayed to God to spare my child's life. I made a promise to God that if he spared my child's life and delivered me from the feeling of not being able to live without this man, I would never go back to him. I would raise my child according to his word. God did just that. He also came to me as I was sitting in my living room one afternoon. I could feel the Lords presence all around me. My stomach started to move, I knew my baby was going to make it. In the summer of 2003, I delivered an 6 pounds 5 ounce, baby girl. The name I chose for her is a meaning of God's gift to us all. Everyday I make it a point to get on my knees with my daughter, now three years old, and say the Lord's prayer aloud. I tell her that I love her and God loves her.
I am now earning my bachelors degree in business and I haven't had any contact with my child's father in close to a year. I am more happy today than I have ever been. I love the Lord with all my heart and soul and I am raising my child to do the same. The moral of my story is, if you put God first in your life, you will away come out on top.
LaTonya , TN
My web site is www.freewebs.com/upliftingspiritz/
Words of encouragements: My name is Shirley, I have two beautiful children. I am a woman that love God with all of my heart. I am a christian woman. I have been in church almost all of my life. About 13 years ago I was engaged with this young man. Engaged, but not married. But sleeping with him. I'm sure a lot of christian men and woman can relate to that. As a christian woman, I no that sleeping with someone and not married to them was wrong but I did it anyway. Like some of you are doing!!! I was with this young man for 3 years and we broke up. I kept in contact with him. One day he called me on the phone and said that he wasn't feeling well and that he had to go to the doctor. To make a long story short --- he called me back after he received the tests from the doctor and stated that he was diagnosis with AIDS. I went to visit him at the hospital. When we were talking he told me that I had nothing to worry about. A couple of years passed after that and he died. I moved on with my life, work hard and had 2 children. I worked with computers, it would get very cold in the office that I worked in. I developed a cough, the doctors thought I had a bad case of sinus. I started to loose weight. My cough was getting really bad --- I remember one day when I was at work I was coughin so much I went to the restroom and I started coughing up blood. My sisters were so worried about me. I worked the midnight shift and when I got home my sister from Mississippi was there. I looked at both of my sisters and their faces showed a great concern. They told me that they were going to pick me up and take me to the doctor. I did not like doctors. I told them ok I will go to the doctor. He took a lot of tests --- a week passed and the test results were in. He wanted us to come to the office. He told me that I not only had HIV, but I had full blown aids. Doctors would say that that is a death sentence. After we left that office I started thinking about alot of things mostly about my beautiful children. They had to be tested to along with my husband at the time. My son and husband tested negative and my daughter tested positive. How many people you know would just throw there hands in the air and give up. I no that God has a plan and a purpose for our lives. When I got home I told my pastor at that time what the doctors had said. He asked me a question ---- he asked me what do you what to do -- do you want to live or die? I was thinking in my mind, what do you mean what do I want to do ---- you don't have to go thru this!!! But I thought about what he said I know that the power of life and death is in your mouth --- I started thinking about my children, my family, my husband, etc. All of a sudden what came out of my mouth is that I WANT TO LIVE!!!! I also know that satan has a plan for us also. His plans are to steal, kill and destroy!!!! I really believe that God was standing there waiting for me to release his word so he can move on my behalf --- God can't move for us we have to make that choice --- I started meditating on God word for healing, listening to healing tapes. Just meditating on Gods precious words. Started seeing myself healed, delivered and set free. Having dreams of me going to churches, etc. telling people about the goodness of Jesus Christ. One day the doctor called he had ran another test on me for hepatis. At the time when I was at the doctor I had less than 20 t-cells. The doctor was amazed that my 20 t-cells was fighting off viruses. He couldn'[t believe it, but I could. You see those 20 t-cells I had left were my 20 angels. Fighting back the hands of satan. I know that this is a long story, but I want to let people know that GOD heals, delivers and set free. He is the same yesterday, today and forever more. People of GOD, when Jesus died on the cross his last words was IT IS FINISHED!!!! The stripes that JESUS bore on his back was for healing. Let me tell you that there is a name above aids, cancer, diabetes, etc. The name is JESUS CHRIST!!! I want to tell you people of God that me and my precious daughters from this day is healed delivered and set free by the name of Jesus!!!!! Be encouraged!!! There is nothing to hard for God. If he said it in his word, you better believe it will come to pass. GOD BLESS!!!!!
I only call on Jesus!
Few months ago, my mother was hospitalized because her cancer had spreaded. There was fluid in her lungs, infection in her blood, and it was discovered that she had a hernia. Her color had completely left her body because she had no blood. She took 10 bags of blood in a week. The doctors asked if we understood her last wish because THEY felt this was the end. However, I knew that my father in heaven had the last word and I went into prayer. I called on the Lord again and again and again. I asked him to heal her body, mind, and spirit. I told him that her children needed her. All night long, I kept calling on the Lord. Three days later, my mother was dismissed from the hospital land has no infection in the blood, her lungs are clear, and she has started a new and stronger treatment. God is good and he is in the blessing and healing business. I only call on Jesus. Just when everyone else wanted to give up, my Lord came in and right on time.
When you feel at your lowest, when the doctors can’t seem to help, when others begin to give up on you…. Take a moment and make a phone call and only call on Jesus. All you need is faith, the size of a mustard seed. Believe it and it will be given on to, but first you must call on him. It doesn’t matter the day, time, month, or year…Just call him.
Deidra M. Byas
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My name is Kim. I would like to share my testimony. I have always been a woman of control, the go to person for everyone. I was always so consumed with helping others that I forgot about the one person that was helping me GOD.
The day came when I would be humbled and reminded that the GOD I serve is a jealous GOD with ways of reminding you that HE must come first.
I worked for a fortune 500 company for five years making well over $55,000/year. I have my own home, had two cars was able to come and go as I pleased. I had put my credit on track, I had even put my husbands credit on track. I was moving and shaking but that was nothing new because this was who I had always been. Over the years of working at this company my health began to fail. I had high blood-pressure, suffered from chronic migraines all due to stress from the job. I had gotten to the point were waking up in the morning was a task within itself. I guess you could say that depression had set in.
I would come home from work and take all of my frustrations out on my husband, my children anyone who happen to be available, got it and I could deliver it. My husband said to me one day that place has changed you, you are not the same person anymore, you are always mad and nothing makes you happy anymore and as much as I hated to hear those words they were the truth. I had no idea that this was the beginning of major changes in my life, changes that without the help of the LORD I don't think I could have made it through.
I began to pray, but I had forgotten how see I had not been on my knees in months lets try years. I would lay in my bed and begin to pray but before I was finish I was asleep no time for the one man that could save me and make everything right. This is when I believe GOD allowed the devil to use me and if you know anything about the word then you know that GOD will allow the devil to use you. I was bought out of my company and still I thought that is fine because I have some savings and we will make it until I find another job, well another job did not come for almost six months and by the forth month we were struggling. The house that I had just purchased in June of 05 was already in lieu of foreclosure the car that I had purchased in October was already 3 payments behind every small bill in the house was behind and we were robbing peter to pay paul. Once again I took it out on my husband as if this was all his fault. Then I remembered this was not the first time that I had been down but it was the first time that I was down and very short on faith. I had tried everything and nothing worked, I was leaning on man and I knew better, but when you know what you know, you also know that you must look to the hills and in that moment it all became clear.
I was so above myself that I had forgotten how I got there. I lost all sight of what was real and became lost in material things. I forgot that nothing stands without a foundation and I fail to my knees in prayer, I prayed like I never prayed before and I said GOD I know that I have been through worse and you have brought me through but this time is different because I forgot about you and that made everything seem 10 times worse. I got up from the floor and I wiped my face and said today is the last time I will shed tears of sorrow because Joy comes in the morning and I went on my way.
That following Sunday I decided to go out and do some work in my yard and this is when it all happened. My son put in a Kirk Franklin CD and the song Holy Is The Lamb began to play and I went in the house only to turn it up, but on my way back out the door something or should I say someone turned me around and I could feel His arms around me. I began to cry because see I had felt these arms before and noone holds me this way, I began to shout because I knew that my Father was on His way. I had the HOLYGHOST right there in my living room and in that instant I knew that today was my day. I knew that my wait was over and that now that I have recognized who is the head of my life His promise to bare my burdens would not be broken. In that moment I realized that He had been there all the long but in my wordly state I could not see. I had lost all focus of everything that was real to me.
GOD is a AWESOME GOD and He never leaves us nor forsakes us we just have to know that we must acknowledge Him in All that we do. There is nothing higher nor more powerful than His plan. If He can die, be buried and rise on the third day just as He said who are we to forget our place. I have learned that I will first be a go to person for GOD someone that He is proud to have mirror His image, I will be a superwoman for the LORD and through my testimony I will help those who think that man alone can save them.
Sincerely,
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Ladies, I am a 22 year old single mother of one. I made a mistake by letting a man define me. I felt as though, if I didn’t hear him say it, then I was not beautiful. After we broke up I felt as though I didn’t have much to live for. I felt like I was not whole. And that in its self was not setting a great example for my daughter who is now two. I needed to love myself and I asked god to give me the strength to accept myself flaws and all. God, did. I asked god to mend my broken heart and he did. God is worthy to be praised. Then came my next trial. My child's father has not been taking responsibility for his child. He provides no type of support, not even a phone call. I became angry at him. I even started to hate him. I know that’s not what god wanted. I asked god to remove all of the anger and hurt from my heart and allow me to love him. I realize that it is not up to me to judge her father. God will. When god is through with me, he will send my prince. I know there is someone out there who will read this and be able to identify with what I am going through. And I hope it will provide them comfort to know that god hears your prayers and you can never whisper too far away from his ear. God will work it out. Love your self, be patient, and trust god. Sincerely, xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My story is simply obedience is better than sacrifice. I have had to learn this the hard way. I have always been the good daughter, good mother, good sister, good friend, good person 95% of the time, but you know what ladies I am learning to be good to GOD the only person who can supply all my needs and will forever be faithful. I am learning to be good to me. I have always put the needs of others first. It is time I do the will of GOD and do what's best for me. I am a servant to the King it is time for me to be more faithful to Him and more faithful for myself. Always look to JESUS in all things.
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God is good all the time, all the time God is good. It took me so long to realize how true those words truly are. I’ve run for so long but Thank God for mercy and grace and his love for me, I can praise him with all my heart.
I just want to say no matter what you’ve done God is a forgiving God and Jesus lives. My house note was seven months behind. I was at the point I didn’t know which way to go or how it was going to get paid. I prayed and sometimes felt as though I wasn’t being heard. But I stood on God’s word and through faith I believed that he would make away. Within that seven month period when I couldn’t pay a dime on my mortgage note not one person called me from the mortgage company nor did they send me anything in the mailed. The first week of March I received a letter from my mortgage company stating I had 30 days from the date of Feb. 28th to pay all past due notes in the amount of $8, 000.00 give or take a few dollars. I prayed and asked God to make a way because it was no way I could pay it and no one I knew had that kind of money and if they did I couldn’t ask for that amount. On March 28, thirty days to the date of the letter my daughter’s father called and asked how much money did I need. He had been paid from a job that he did almost a year ago and the company was coming up with every excuse not to sign off on his final payment. God blessed him with payment in full for the job and bless me with a way to pay my house note up to date. I ‘m a single parent and I thank God for giving my child a father that cared enough to help when he could to ensure his child had somewhere to stay. I also thank God for the storm he's gradually pulling me through because he is creating an awsome God fearing woman in me. I'm glad he picked me because for I know the best is yet to come. No weapon formed against me shall prosper.
In May of 1996, my world as I knew it changed. My name is Letitia and I was brought up in church. My dad the Rev. James Sutton trained me in the way that God wanted. He took me to church and showed me with his actions daily to be like CHRIST. Imagine how I felt, that Sunday to know someone had murdered my dad,friend,mentor, like he was nothing. He was bound,tied, gagged, and strangled to death, in his own home. My reactions were anger,hurt,pain. At that time in my life all I lived for were my 3 son's and my dad. The boy's weren't just his grandson's(They were like the son's he never had)They were real close. I was so angry at GOD……How could he let somebody who woke up in the morning with GOD on his mind and went to bed at night with the same thoughts. I became a person I didn't like. I was angry..so very angry. I began doing all kinds of destructive things. The more alchol I drank the soberer I would become. I was so busy trying to hide the pain, I didn't see what I was doing to myself. I was trying to be strong for the boy's,my aunts and family, that I was doing everything that I knew was wrong. One day I took my oldest son to school, and circled around the block to drop my baby son off. As I circled back around the block I saw my oldest son, standing on the corner. What struck me as strange was the bookbag looked empty. I put him in the car and checked the bookbag. There inside was 4 boxcutters. He was looking for his grand-dad's killer. I understood what he was feeling, b-cuz the night before I was 2 corners from where he was looking for the same person. See the neighborhood where I grew up in-Rumors…You know. The person responsible had resurfaced…I wanted justice-a LIFE for a LIFE….I found somebody for all of my son's to talk too, too get their anger out. You know sometimes family,friends they mean well but you just need an unbiased opinion. When I got home, I fell on my knees and asked GOD to just take it away. I begged his forgiveness for the anger that I had toward him. I wanted God to make me understand how he could let one of his own die so violently and tear our family apart. I asked God to touch my son's and family that we would
Be like my dad and forgive…See my dad always told us..that if we outlived him--that we would have to live as CHRIST did and forgive those who do us wrong. Those that hurt us..Those that spitefully use us….In order for us to see him again….In 1998 we as a familly got our justice. The killer received life plus 40 years. All I know is GOD is real. I know because I asked him for 3 things and he gave me all 3. I asked for a job, He gave me one. I asked him to guide my son's and my oldest now works for the State of MD., my middle son is in his last year of college and will graduate May 2006, he is going to be a public school teacher…..My baby son has just completed his 1st year college…broadcasting is his major…….Thank you Jesus…..I asked him for PEACE of Mind…………I waited patiently on the lord and he heard my cry……….Be blessed………..
Amen, for this web site. I Love this web page because I know there's a Jesus and he's Wonderful. In 2004 my 8 year old daughter was diagnose with brain cancer. She had three brain surgery's, radiation and chemo that lasted a year. God is so good she's in school today as we speak. Jesus has been so good to me and my family. Jesus is the sweets name I know. Amen
Vicky Bibbs
Sisters remember to always stay on track no matter what comes down your path. Do not let anyone or anything come before God in your life. He should always be first and everything else will work itself out.
Here's my story... 7 years ago, I went through a terrible divorce. I cheated on my husband out of retaliation due to his controlling personality and my own selfish need to be free. Eventually, I left him with my daughter in his care.
I made one huge mistake after another and even filed bankruptcy because I was uneducated and immature with my finances. I let go of everything and also turned my back on my own little girl, just to be with another man that I made myself believe was the right man for me. I was shacking up for 2 years with the expectation of marriage but received nothing except heartache, pain, low self-esteem, and drama... I begged the Lord to remove me from that relationship with no morals because I had become too weak to physically and mentally do it on my own. I had become mentally drained and my emotions were too deep for me to even understand myself or my actions.
I lost my job trying to keep up with him, I lost my dignity trying to please him, I lost my friends running behind him, and I lost my path with God because of it all. After losing everything, I finally gained just enough strength to leave this man and go home to my mother. Thank God she has an open door policy for all of her children. I fell to my knees and begged for God's forgiveness. With my mother and grandmother praying over me, I read the bible daily in an effort to understand my mistakes and get reassurance of God's forgiveness because I didn't know how to forgive myself. I prayed daily to feel a closer relationship with God and I asked for strength and wisdom to regain all that I had lost and for peace within. I was in church every Sunday and got there before everyone. In other words, I totally submitted myself to God.
Here I am 8 years later, with a new God fearing husband, an unbreakable relationship with my daughter and I am almost debt free. I am active in several different ministries at the church we attend as a family. My God has provided me with all of my needs and then some! God has given me the ability to accept and grow from my past mistakes, but to not dwell on those mistakes and use them as an excuse for anything. I am responsible for all of my actions and my self-esteem has been repaired through perseverance over the time it took for me to be where I am today. It was a hard and rough road but God took me through things that I now understand "why" I had to go through them. I can truly say that God had a plan in mind and I was hard to break. He broke me down and has built me back up again. Put God first in ALL you do, give God the glory for every good thing He allows you to do, and never allow Love to hurt you. God is Love, and God would never hurt any of His children. Ask God today to help you remove the rocky places in your life that are keeping you from fully receiving everything He has to offer.
Love,
Sister Tracy
I would like to share my story with you and others like us. Short and to the point.
Talk about relationships. I was married at the age of 16 with one child. After 10 years of that marriage, and not knowing anything about what went on in the world, I ran across what I thought was the most sharpest man I had seen in the short time I had been free from marriage. Little did I know that, “what looks good isn’t always good for you” that saying? This man was a pimp, hustler, womanizer, everything you considered bad in a man he was, I know now I kept the company of the devil for approximately 19 years.
God delivered me from the situation I was in. I prayed, cried and prayed a many day and night. There was no one I could turn to but God, cause I didn’t want my mom to know what I had gotten myself into, but, she already knew. She prayed and had other praying for me. I was not only a prisoner, but a sick prisoner – unable to go see a doctor and when I finally did I was diagnosed with graves disease. I was then introduced to drugs, which I was always totally against. At the time that seemed to take away the pain, only to return when that high was over. My weight in the beginning was 145 lbs and in the end I weighed 115 lbs.
My God did however answer my prayers. He opened a door for me and I went through never looking back. I praise him every day of what he has done, is doing and going to do in my life. I am a totally new creature. No longer a victim of this world, even though I have to live here. God has blessed me with a ministry called “Daughters of the Most High” which we minister to teen age girls.
I just wanted to share this to show others how awesome our God is and that it is important to remember that we can do all things through Christ that strengthens us.
God Bless,
MS.WANETTA KING,SBS MEMBER
Hello: my name is Wanetta King and I have been asked to share my testimony. I was in love with a man who was never nice to me. I guess you can say that I put myself into a situation that was not a winner from the start, but I loved that man. I was with my husband when he got 7 years in prison. I was college girl who met a hustler and fell in love. I wanted him to know that I was down with him so I stood by his side in prison. When he got out he dogged me he treated me like trash. But I couldn't let anyone know how hurt I was because everyone had told me that he is going to hurt you but I could not let them know they were right so I smiled in public and cried indoors. Only one or two people knew what I was going through. I was sick- emotionally scarred for life. At the time I was with him when he got out I was working for the D.A.'s office in Milwaukee. My job was okay I had made good friends and I enjoyed helping the people in my community with their problems. I was a Victim/Witness Specialist. When he got out he was treating me real bad. I remember going out to dinner one night with a friend of mine and his and something happened were I got upset and he in turn got upset with me and we left and when we got in the car we were fussing and he slapped me. That was the first time he slapped me and it got worse from there. In fact, I had 3 black eyes in 1 year-I hid from my family, bought make-up to hide the scars but my mother and everyone knew that I was getting treated badly. He was cheating openly with females who never cared about him. Sometimes I tried to get away but he wouldn't let me. He would follow me sit &watch my house or other family members house. I was terrified of him but I loved him so I couldn't bring myself to call the police on him. Well one day I got the nerve to leave him-I moved into my mom's home. One night I went out with some friends of mine and he was at the place we were at with two females he was dating. I was hurt but I was faking it off enjoying my friends. One of the girls I was with said something to him that set him off and they got into it. It was a big mess-things happened that never should have happened on both ends. Nevertheless, I lost all my friends, my job, my dignity, my self-respect-I lost everything. I sacrificed and compromised who I was for someone who never loved me. He continued to beat me, threaten me-I was so scared of him. People didn't understand how scared I was of him-why I could not just leave him-my fear & love of him keep me in total check. I didn't understand myself. I tried to commit suicide-I didn't want to be on this earth cause I was so sad but as many times as I tried it never worked. I didn't understand. I had a nervous breakdown. I had my cousin Tonia by my side trying to help me, even though I know she didn't understand she still stood by my side. Mostly everyone else washed their hands of me. I will never forget that. Well he went to jail because of the incident with my old friends and I still loved him and was still very scared of him but I stood by his side in fact I married him. I think now it was out of love but more guilt because he would always throw in my face if it wasn't for my friends none of this would have happened. I felt very guilty for years for him and my old friends but he used that to his advantage. He was in jail when I married him and I stood by his side faithfully for years cause I loved him more then I loved myself. He was not worthy of my love. But his going to jail was a blessing in disguise, me losing some of my friends was also a blessing in disguise. God needed me to be myself-he needed to work on me-my self-esteem, my love for myself and my love and devotion for him. I needed to be remade into something different. I was never a bad person but I don't think I was the person He wanted me to be. While my husband was in jail, he stayed the same-but I didn't. I did all my wifely duties-I was loyal to him but he wore me out. God put me in graduate school, got me a home that I love, and helped me get into a career where I could do his work and help young people with their life. God taught me so many lessons it was unbelievable. I felt like a butterfly being released out of their cocoon. I started to fall in love with me and treasure me-I wasn't all the way healed but I knew I could not take any more of my husband and his ways. He was still mean to me when he was in prison after all I had done he was still mean-I let go-I started to breathe again this time though the air was fresher-I couldn't let go of the fresh air. So I divorced him, he tried to get alimony from me and equity out of my home but God is good he gave me a judge who was not trying to hear any of that. I moved on. Now don't get me wrong my relationship with men after him has not been all beautiful I am still learning. I have to remind myself that I have been doing myself harm for years it may take years to completely rid myself of the negativity I put myself in. But I do know now what I do not want in a man and what I will not accept. My boundaries are set before I was set on pleasing the man now I am set on pleasing God, myself and the man God will send to me-and I know he is coming. Ladies my struggle is not over but because of the trials and tribulations God brought me through, I know my life has really begun. I am blessed but the blessing really comes in when you know you have more blessing coming your way and you can then bless others with your blessings. Be blessed beautiful sisters and remember to be a blessing to others!!
I love you All,
Your sister in Christ
Netta
